Blessings manifold.

Again, I am embarrassed for not having updated since donkey months ago. Too much to talk about, too little energy to stare at the PC screen for minutes longer. In short, the A's were over last December and so it's been the real genuine true holidays. There has been much relaxation, but that aside and more importantly, am in the process of finding a church community to settle in (it's high time now). This period of time has also been great catching up with dear family and ol' friends. With more time at hand to ponder over things at random and in random motion, I now realise and notice the many more blessings in my life which the Lord has endowed. I guess with regards to my faith there is still a lot to work on and learn about...

Will update again, slowly. Right now, am becoming a little wonky cranky. Time to turn in for the day to be ready for a brand new day of work. There are, after all, so many things to look forward to. For one thing, I am contented to be clothed and to have three meals everyday.

God Bless.

Stranded.

There have been countless instances when I felt like texting to a couple of people in my past who meant and still means a lot to me (I don't know about them)... just afraid I disturb their lives somehow. Yet, I long to hear from them... so much.

It's just two more months. I tell myself- I'm gonna make it, even though the road ahead isn't gonna be easy. I pray. I hope. I try to think positive. I keep reminding myself that He is in control; that He understands my everything; that He is with me to hold my hand and guide me; that my family is also there to support me; that the people who love and care for me believe that I can do it.

But. But. In spite of all these... the inside of me still screams... so loud that I can just tear in fear. Like, now.

Oh noou you perhaps won't understand how I feel even if you tried to.

Am hit to realisation.

Has been mad weeks, days, hours, minutes, and seconds. Not much time to stop and think properly. It's only slowly setting in to me that I am really IN for the A levels in a matter of months.

Ecclesiastes 5:18 really spoke to me recently. There's nothing more that I could ask for than what I already have in this short life of mine thus far. Am blessed... and all along it has been like that. I shall not complain, not matter how stressful it can be at times.

Till the next post, I'm going backstage again.

2009 April 09

Farewell, Project Work.

Goodbye, for good.

History, you have become.

Now and forevermore.

~

Thank God, so much. It was all worthwhile... everything - the late nights, slogging, shedding of much emotions.

Bared Soul.

To pour my heart out and do some soul searching.

Bespectacled 8). And getting used to it B)

The only kid in the house with a seemingly smarter look at night; when she's watching teevee (if she ever does); when she's at the computer or when she's working at her table.

Am still very amused at my fogged vision when I drink a hot beverage.

Don't you think that many a times when you think that something is not going to happen to you, it eventually does?

Then you'd probably have tHis look: O_O

Imagery. Imagination.

On my most-listened list recently...

Yoko Kano - Kira Kira
Yoko Kano - Zero Hour
Yoko Kano - Innocent Green

It's the kind of music that stimulates me or triggers my mental imagery, to imagine what kind of scenario or story may suit the mood of the music (also referring to Sakamoto Ryuichi's Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence); the kind of music that would probably make me reflect on life at random- Panic At The Disco's Northern Downpour has this effect on me too to the max.

Sometimes I really feel that being human is really challenging... your birth into this world marks the beginning of a really important responsibility to shoulder...